A new year has approached, and I think it's safe to say that a fresh start is needed. 

Last year was filled with soooo many ups and downs. I had made choices that I didn't necessarily regret, for I believe that everything happens for a reason, and the outcomes are completely out of my control. As cheesy as it sounds, the cards were dealt, I played my deck, and it was up to fate to decide whether or not the odds were in my favour. 

Before you start throwing hunger game references at me, I honestly really am content with everything that had happened last year. I clawed my way out of high school, and made friends that I am so grateful for. If anything, my batch is basically like a second family to me. We went, and pushed through everything together. 

It's sad to think that we're all going to go our seperate ways this year, and sooner or later, may just not bother to keep in contact anymore. Although, it's just the way life works. No one is really to blame for that happening, as it does take two to tango. I won't let that happen though. I'd like to think that I've finally found a stable group of people in my life that I can talk to almost anything about, with no boundaries and no worries of being judged (most of the time). Trust me when I say no boundaries, Joe can vouch for that. Hahahhahahahha. 

If I were to pick out a specific emotion that I've surprisingly shown throughout this year- it would be vulnerability. 

I didn't necessarily wear it on my sleeve for the whole world to see, but I did let people in to witness that raw side of me. It might not seem like a big deal, but it's not something I show often, or at all for that matter. I still stand by my philosophy that feelings are for the weak, but I'll let my walls down slowly for people that deserve it. 

So, to those of you of whom I have opened up to, that listened, thank you so much from the bottom of my heart. There's not many of you out there. I'll try not to bottle up my feelings as much this year. 

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Lastly, to those of whom I have chosen to leave behind in 2015;

Sadly, more than you would ever care for me. And it took a lot of will power to leave you behind. But you have to understand that, it's time for me to be a bit selfish for once, and think about myself. 

What you don't know, is that, I was absolutely gutted inside. Every single thing that might not have seemed negative to you, was just slowly eating me away.  Eating away my self esteem, eating away my confidence, eating away the respect I had for myself. I stood by you every step of the way this year, but I don't think that fact was enough. 

Toxic, that's one way someone described my relationship with you.